Here I am, gray hair attesting to at least a chronological maturity, yet I still have the impulse to show mommy my pretty drawing and have her put it on the refrigerator door. Does that pitiful need for approval ever go away? I’ve been writing for nine years, have published novels and written a bunch more that are not yet published, and still, I write a scene that seems to sing, and I want to show it to somebody. They’ll be so impressed, so proud of me, they’ll tell me it’s wonderful and put a gold star in the top right corner.
Kind of pitiful. Especially when you consider that this impulse occurs immediately after the first draft of that scene. I know very well that in a few hours or days I’ll look it over again and smack myself in the forehead. This thing needs revisions, big time. So I’ll fix it and wish again I could show it to an adoring someone who’ll pat me on the back and say Good Job.
Some people hire secretaries and assistants to help them with research and what not. Maybe I should hire someone to sit in the next room until I’m ready for praise and cookies. She, or he, would then come in and read my pages and murmur or chuckle and then pronounce me a very clever girl indeed. What’s the going rate for a grandmother these days?